Lockdown kinda put a downer on things didn’t it? For everyone. It’s great because it’s saving lives but it can still take a real toll on you.
I personally have found lockdown really difficult. When the country went into lockdown I was in the middle of my first year at university. I was able to say I was the happiest I have ever been (which is a really cool thing to be able to say and I hope you can all say it at some point too).
So quick timeline for how I got to this point:
September 15th 2019:
- Move into halls
September 2019 – March 16th 2020:
- Have the best 7 months of my life
Monday 16th March 2020:
- Attended last in person lecture of first year
- Received email from uni saying we should leave accommodation in the next few days with the things we need for the “foreseeable future”
- Boris said to “avoid pubs, clubs, theatres and other such social venues”
- In typical student fashion, many people spent the day in the student union bar (because varsity was cancelled) and then we all went on one final night out. (Aware this is not the most sensible choice but we had no idea when we would be able to do that again)
Tuesday 17th March 2020:
- Phoned Mum and Nan. Decided I would go home Tuesday evening.
- Packed up half of my belongings
- Mum came to collect me after work (thanks mum love you)
Monday 23rd March:
- Receive an email from uni with a booking system to collect belongings as a lockdown on travel is imminent
- Book an appointment for 8am Tuesday 24th March
- 8pm – Boris announces lockdown, appointment cancelled
Ok and then you kind of know the drill. Stuck at home. Can’t go anywhere. Seeing the same 3 people, the dog and the tortoise.
I started lockdown with the whole “I’m going to go on a journey of self discovery and improvement”. This very quickly went down the drain when I realised I did not have the physical or mental energy to be super productive 24/7 and workout for an hour 6 days a week. It just wasn’t going to happen. I have now found a balance and I’m still working on stuff, but I’m currently content like 90-95% of the time, which is acceptable.
Some days are a little rubbish. I want that extra 5 minutes/hours in bed. I’m not hungry, or I want to eat loads. I’m laughing then I’m snapping and crying over things I can’t change. I’m angry at people I love for no reason and honestly sometimes I’m just a bit lonely. When you go from seeing hundreds of different faces every day, seeing the same 3 in exactly the same routine can be exhausting. Don’t get me wrong, I love my family. But its hard sometimes. And they get that.
We are all working on it together and are looking forward to the day we can all do separate things in separate places.
Remember, at a time like this, self care is super important. Put you and your needs first. Take the time to work out what your needs are. Be happy as much as you can be because you only get to do this life once.